God's Music

For those of you who don't know, I'm part of music in school. Me and three quarters of my class are all taking flute. Now, just a little run-down for those who have never tried to play flute. Getting a sound out of it is somewhat hard in the beginning. You have to learn to blow the right amount for it to get through the whole flute and still come out as a good sound. That's the second part. Depending on how hard you blow, it will either sound good or bad. Today Scott had a volleyball game and me and my friend Kristi were cheering throughout almost the whole thing. And after his game I had to practice flute.

Now, my throat was kind of sore after all that cheering, and you could hear it in the flute. Literally, the sound was all wheezy and you could just hear air going through with a little bit of a tune to it. It reminded me how I am as a Christain. Sometimes I feel really good about my faith, and I'm ready to take any insult, and do anything for Christ. After all, He gave His life for me, so I should be able to do a few things back. When I feel really close to God, it reminds me of when my flute playing is good and strong with a nice clear tune. I should be like that, living my life clear like that, so people can tell by the way I live that I belong to Christ.

But other times, my faith feels crummy. It's not very strong, and I'm not sure if how I'm worshiping or praying is respectful enough, and it just seems like God isn't there. I know that He is with me all the time, but sometimes it just feels like he's letting these things happen to me because of something I've done, or because He's trying to test me. And I don't know if I'm passing the test. That's when my flute playing is bad. It comes out all wheezy and you can hardly tell what song I'm playing. When someone snickers, I would just stop. But I don't want to be like that. I want to have a strong clear tune for the world to hear. I want to be God's music all the time. Not just sometimes, at special moments. But all the time, even through parts of life where I feel like I've hit a wall and I can't climb it. Because for me, God's music sounds the best.